you dream of him in blueand whisper his namein the darkness of southern nightslistening to the cityas it breathesthe walls you've built from crumbling earthshake as he speaks your namethey tumble to let him inthrough your cracks and insecuritieshe enters boldlyand says you feel like homehe thinks you are beautifulyou want to eat away his sadnessso you swallow yoursand ask for second helpingsof his griefyou've always loved the oneswho were beautiful and intensethey too know how it feelsto set yourself on firewhen someone says i love youhow it feels when you finallyturn to ash