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Evan

devonName: EvanHometown: Tulsa, OklahomaAge: 26 wonderful years old.Age You First Fell in Love: That is yet to be determined.Love Is: I think love is more of a reality thing, of you really being around someone who makes you better, not because they're telling you to be better but because their sheer person forces you to be a better person yourself.Monique: So you've never been in love?Evan: I have never been in love.Monique: Why do you think you've never been in love?Evan: Because I feel like you would know it and you would feel it and I haven't felt it. I love people, I have loved people. I've definitely told somebody I loved them.Monique: Did you mean it?Evan: (looks at Alia) I did not mean to look at you when I said that, that was a fluke. -It was more of a,  "Well, she says she loves me, I love her too.", as a person kind of thing, not from an actual emotional feel.Monique: Now, when she said she loved you, did it come from an "I'm in love with you." and you just kind of reciprocated, like "Yeah, I love you too."?Evan: Yeah, exactly. Instead of saying something like, "Thank you."Monique: That's kind of fucked up a little bit. (laughs)Evan: Well, there's pressure as man. It's like ok, if I don't tell her now she's going to be mad or maybe I do love her, because I do have love for you. So, you know, I was confused for a long time about what love was.Monique: So what is love to you?Evan: You know, it's funny, because I just came back from a wedding today and it's two of my friends that I live in the same apartment complex with and they are 26, no 27 or 28 and they are genuine friends. You know what I mean? Like they genuinely enjoy each other's company and at the same time they are individuals. They love the individual-ness of each other, they appreciate that and respect that. When I heard them say their vows, it was pure. I mean it was just a pure, actual affection for one another. I don't know, I think that's what love is. People compound love into something that Disney has probably put out there and it really confuses a lot of people, because they're out there looking for a knight in shining armor or whatever, and I think it's non existent. I think love is more of a reality thing, of you really being around someone who makes you better, not because they're telling you to be better but because their sheer person forces you to be a better person yourself. And that happens with friends, genuine friends. You know, I've got friends that I've loved dearly, and being around them, being in their presence makes me a better person in some way, shape or form.Monique: So with the people who you've dated before was it something specific with that person that made you think, "You know, I don't think I'm in love." What is it---Evan: They were really ugly.Monique: (laughs) That's a lie, I don't think you date ugly girls.Evan: That's a lie. That is a lie. Um, I don't think it was about them individually, I really think it was about me. I don't think it has anything to do with them. All of my ex-girlfriends are good people, very good people. And they were good girlfriends. But, if I don't feel it, I'm very much self aware, so if I don't feel it, then it's just not there.Monique: What's your sign?Evan: Gemini, is that on the record?Monique: We can take it off. (laughs)